today sux..basically..cuz my back's aching lyk hell...all bcuz of $#%@!& la...c if any1 cn guess..-_-"..so was nt in a gd mood lo...yuyuan v. chum..he gt most of my bushuang remarks..come 2 tink of it..he's always the 1..so here i'm sayin sry 2 u,yuyuan..haiz.. summore the 2 of them toked nt more than 30 words 2 me today..i didn too..of cuz la..waddya expect..tok 2 the wall arh?den tok cock w/ oth ppl la..juz a lil nt used dat they kept on givin me those looks bt still..its nt lyk there's much diff frm the past isn it?music dat time made a fool of ourselves..dunno play wad la...den ms kuo still said v. creative...wadever..i dun even care abt music..den i went past the oth clazes either juz listenin 2 the teacher,tokin 2 siti,gl or yy,or juz tuned out n tot abt tinks...den remedial dat time siti told me sumtink v. interesting..i went 2 the blog she was sayin bt could c it..hope she'll point it out 2 me l8r...didn realli listen 2 ms karina's lesson as i was juz moping ard n toking w/ siti as though as the teacher wasn there.....den,aft dat..i saw jessica n amily as i was coming down w/ the claz frm the mrl..was tinking dat hw come nobody's gg hm nw..den she call me 2 go over n ask me y i juz said yo 2 her ytd online den nv tok le..i a lil shock tio la..she normally nv tok 2 me de wad..so she expect me say...nt much 2 say lo...den ended up walking by myself cuz i didn wanna walk w/ the ppl upfront...(yy,ben n th)..DEN,finally she wanna tok 2 me la...i show her attitude lo...lyk "wad u wanna say?!nth rite?!k bb..." cuz i realli v. pissed off w/ her cuz i had the reason 2...since i've confirmed sumtink dat i hypothesized..tinks r still v. contradicting n remaining the way it was b4..perhaps it was meant 2 b...dunno... u c...1st i clarify tinks den the person juz suddenly bochup bochup liddat...den anth 1 lyk pissed off w/ me....n i dunno y...den suddenly the 1 who i tink is pissed off toks 2 me as if nth happened...wad the hell is gg on??dat i dunno...bt the 2 of them r juz so so so weird...i dunno la....nw i'm realli moody n dun wish 2 do anytink so if they dun wanna cherish wad's left of dis friendship or anytink....i'm nt gg 2 care...4 the moment...until i feel lyk it...if they c this n blow their tops so wad?i'm juz gonna throw a rare tantrum...do wad i lyk 4 a while...till my sense of responsibility n frenship comes back i'm juz gonna live my life as i wan it...bt it seems realli hard 2 accomplish...mayb i'm juz having a daydream..haiz...wadever...i'm juz gonna wallow in my misery of tinks dat hav happened n hav come @ an untimely time...geddit?i tink the gals geddit..haha...wadever...juz tot of sumtink....shld i help sum1 make a pepper spray???mayb it'll realli help her...hmmmmm....if i've nth betta 2 do...juz feel uncomfortable nw....feelin lyk shit...bored,grumpy,ready 2 lash out @ any1 who pisses me off nw,sick n tired,uncomfortable etc...i'm feeling a lot of tinks @ a time eh?dunno...wadever...nw dunno y gt time juz come n write blog...habit liao...bt oths ard me aren updating...ok...mayb they r..bt nt as much as me,the boliao gal.....i tink i'd betta chill out a lil.......................................

i cried...because of tinks i couldn stop frm happening...`
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